dog im autistic as fuck lmao its not bad
Sorry, not trying to say that it's like a debilitating illness or something shameful, I just don't personally want to have any sort of labels on me. In my id, I'm just a regular-ass motherfucker going through life and trying shit out. I've had people tell me there's definitely
something wrong with me, and that's fine, but I don't want a label on it because then I've got a tendency to get in my own head and that's the last thing I need.
Eh I feel like some of the labeling is just an internet thing, I saw it popping up with Tumblr back 10 years ago now and I think TicTac is only making it worse. Ultimately at some level we all want to be accepted so if you take "slightly socially awkward but passionate about hobbies" and slap a label on it, all of a sudden there's a big ol group of people you can associate with.
Sometimes I'm thankful for the years of undiagnosed ADD because it forced me to ultrafocus dabble in a whole bunch of different hobbies. Ended up with a bunch of useless knowledge that comes in handy when you're a sportsball guy and then someone starts talking about their A/V hobby.
I hate that some people seemingly make labels for shortcomings so they can frame it as a disorder that they can't improve on. Like, what's the picky eater one? Or a guy I worked with who was definitely autistic, but would haaaaaaaaaaardcore lean on that (unverified) diagnosis to be an asshole and then act like he couldn't ever try to improve, or anything like that. Like, I know there's shit wrong with me, but I'm not going to just stop trying to be better. It's like the mental/personality version of 'I'm not fat, it's just my body type' as a 400lb wildebeest fucking stuffs their gaping maw with fritos and salsa con queso (which for the record is a delicious combination but I digress)
e: I also have trouble with focusing, does that mean I have ADD? Co-opting shit people struggle with bothers the shit out of me too, so self-diagnosis is a big pet peeve, so I'm fine with it just being that I have difficulty with focusing on one thing. Hard agree though on the front that I've collected a lot of unusual knowledge/interesting hobbies over the years, and I think it's helped me appreciate people who have unconventional talents/fields of knowledge.